title: writing

"LIFE AND NOTHING MORE"

Gratitude, Desires, and Letting Go


Things will work out in time.
Thank God for the rain, the sunny days.
If heaven was in my life it would be the mornings
when I am writing, hearing rain outside my window,
the first meal of the day, walking in the hills of my school,
making music with friends, days where its sunny
but cool enough to wear a sweater,
studying at the 24 hour lab at my school,
talking with my mom, helping out my dad,
buying gifts for my sisters, this cool air,
and the completion of a project.
All these things are clear
that everything will work out in time.


"This is what I have observed to be good:
that it is appropriate for a person to eat,
to drink and to find satisfaction in their toilsome labor
under the sun during the few days of life God has given them
-for this is their lot. Moreover, when God gives someone
wealth and possessions, and the ability to enjoy them,
to accept their lot and be happy in their toil--
this is a gift of God. They seldom reflect on the days of their life,
because God keeps them occupied with gladness of heart."




In the evenings, when I would take a break from school,
I would leave the library and walk to the back of the buildings where hills,
dead grass, cows, and a tree resided.
I’d take out my synth and practice sound design underneath a tree.




OP-1 Field bag hanging from a tree


For me, music and nature are one of the same.
There is nothing that I make which is not a representation of my day to day life.

I like synths that ring like the birds - the Juno is a good example of that - and guitars that sounds slow and watery like a creek.
I even have some sound patches that I made and do not mind sharing with you.


Celadine

I called this pack "Celadine" after the flowers I used to cross thru to get to this tree.
Now they've become the introduction screen of my videos.
How the same things stick with us.

OP-1 Field bag hanging frmo a tree


And it’s true that we are all the same.
I am myself, I am what I give, and I am who I give to.
Some say we attract the same people.
Well, what are we giving?
I learned circumstances are only a reaction to who we are and what we give and to whom.
I know who I am. And I want to give you this gift.


Fear of Letting Go

OP-1 Field bag hanging frmo a tree


Before I knew who I was,
I let go of what I was not.
These action steps have allowed me to surrender.
Of who I thought I was and was not.
Of what other were and were not to me.
Of what my purpose is and is not.
It is only "I am."

That’s the art of letting go.
I still have expectations and trouble.
But now I feel freer than where I was before.
Expectations are desires.
The dangers of desires is that they can act like your truth.
It is important to return to nature as often as possible.
That way, it is only us and our thoughts and experience.

We breathe deeply.

We study the field.

In our rooms.

The cracks and holes in the walls.

This is what I make in sound.
Stories lyrics song - this is life and nothing more.




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